I'll Take Off My Mask

I'll Take Off My Mask

by Ella M.

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect?

Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were?

Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my mask and my shadows?

Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there would be times I’d let you down?

For though I yearn to take care of you as I should,

though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades,

my knees tremble this very moment thinking the day we would meet again

and that you will hold me in your arms.

Shall I kiss you?

Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit

knowing that you know my past and my darkness,

knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed

by the mask and darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you.

I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me.

Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words

what the hell it is that troubles me.

I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together.

Sometimes I’d lose my temper

and I’d no longer act like the fine person who can stand next to you.

Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean.

Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt.

And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways.

Instead of pouring my heart to you, I’d get back to being SILENT

and don’t say things to help you understand.

Sometimes I’d say things I shouldn’t say.

And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy,

sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.

But if you will love me, I will take off my mask.

I will bare my whole self-naked before you,

and I will reveal to you my soul.

If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love,

not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see.

If you will love me,

you can be certain that you will see beyond my eyes the love you deserve.

If you will love me,

you can be sure that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me,

and I in turn will love you with all of me,

with all my soul, with all my mind,

with all my spirit,

with all my flaws and beauty,

and with all my very heart.

all i know is that…i found you, you found me, and i love you for everything that you are.